There’s More to a Name

Recently I was going back and forth with the idea of changing my Instagram handle. I was worried that people thought it was “too cheesy” or “silly.” But then I took a step back and thought about the reason I chose the handle and the name for my personal brand. Fit and Fearless. I chose…

Don’t neglect your passions💗

Never in my life did I ever think I would “drop out of school.” Yes, I graduated from highschool; Yes, I even graduated from University. But this year I made the decision to drop out of my graduate program. In grade 12, at the age of 16 (late birthday things), I had to decide what…

I never expected to relapse

*trigger warning* When I finally started on my recovery journey, and left residential treatment I never really imagined I would relapse. In all my previous treatment stays, relapse was a given. I never had changed my mindset, I had simply been weight restored and gone along with the process so that I would eventually be…

Pseudorecovery

The other day I came to quite the conclusion. ED is back. No, not as loud, not as intense, not as controlling, but it’s back. Over the past 9 months I have been engaging in pseudorecovery. I have been consciously and intentionally under-eating. While at first it seemed harmless, in November I found myself in…

Let’s Talk

For all my non-Canadian friends who may have never heard of it before, Bell Let’s Talk is an initiative run by the telecommunications company, Bell. The initiative began in 2010 and seeks to open up conversation about mental health . They have 4 pillars of focus: anti-stigma, care and access, research and workplace health (Bell…

December 20th

December 20th has been an important day in my recovery from the beginning. I started struggling with anorexia when I was 12 years old, after battling with low self esteem for years prior. After months of outpatient treatment with no progress, I was placed in a day treatment program for 4 months. I went into…

Transformation Tuesday: my story

I’m going to preface this with a very large #triggerwarning! In no way do I want to trigger anyone, and I have tried to stick to the facts and avoid anything too graphic or indulgent of my eating disorder. However, if you want to read this but are worried you may be triggered, skip down…