There’s More to a Name

Recently I was going back and forth with the idea of changing my Instagram handle. I was worried that people thought it was “too cheesy” or “silly.” But then I took a step back and thought about the reason I chose the handle and the name for my personal brand. Fit and Fearless. I chose…

5 important things I learned on my trip to Vegas

1. It’s okay to enjoy yourself I know a bunch of people who struggle to let themselves relax: they feel they don’t deserve it, they worry about other things, they overthink each excursion, etc. But let me tell you it is 100% okay to take a step back and enjoy yourself. You deserve it –…

I never expected to relapse

*trigger warning* When I finally started on my recovery journey, and left residential treatment I never really imagined I would relapse. In all my previous treatment stays, relapse was a given. I never had changed my mindset, I had simply been weight restored and gone along with the process so that I would eventually be…

“I’ll just eat after…”

I know tons of people who say, “I could never forget to eat,” but sometimes when life gets crazy and we’re on the go all day it’s easy to let eating slide as a priority and even to forget to eat! Personally, I struggle with delaying my eating. If I have class I’ll tell myself…

Pseudorecovery

The other day I came to quite the conclusion. ED is back. No, not as loud, not as intense, not as controlling, but it’s back. Over the past 9 months I have been engaging in pseudorecovery. I have been consciously and intentionally under-eating. While at first it seemed harmless, in November I found myself in…

December 20th

December 20th has been an important day in my recovery from the beginning. I started struggling with anorexia when I was 12 years old, after battling with low self esteem for years prior. After months of outpatient treatment with no progress, I was placed in a day treatment program for 4 months. I went into…

Mirror Mirror on the Wall

What if, whenever you looked in the mirror, you were never sure if you could trust what you saw? What if, seeing yourself in a positive way, felt simply impossible? For some people, this is a reality that they face every day. Body Dysmorphia, or Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD), is usually associated with eating disorders,…